hmmm

well im just gonna type before work: people say lo and i will get married, and i would LOVE that. but in reality, i just dont know whats going to happen. i would like to see a ring on my hand from him. i love him with all my heart, but for some reason i just dont think he feels that way anymore. yesterday was just totally different, he was pushing me away like he was trynna get away from me. idk what going on. i just want us to be the way we were when we first started going out.  but i know that’s never gonnna happen. but all i can do is just keep smiling and let ppl think we’re the happiest couple ever. but all of this like him living in portsmouth and he might have to transfer, it’s killing me. i never see him that much already now this?! ugh, idk i don’t want to lose him =/